The Thing We Fear

…is not death. Not really. Millions face death every day and we find our peace with that, because death is not an end.

What we really fear is Becoming. We see it as a vast unknown, terrifying and empty of all that is familiar and grounding and safe. We sense a landscape but cannot see it. We long to cling to the objects and experiences that have feathered our nests and given us a kind of warmth, even if that nest has been polluted with the detritus of another’s ill intent and the corpses of memories that cause us pain.

We would rather hold onto pain than to step into a reality where we fear we will lose ourselves.

Some have misinterpreted this as a fear of success. Consider that what we fear is that if we let go of this illusion that we call existence for a very different type of existence, that we will dissolve and cease to be our essential selves.

This is the lie that is programmed into us so that we will only choose to evolve when we can face that fear, with full consciousness, and still say “YES”.

The lie is that we are separate and orphaned, any experience of Source a dim notion on the fringes of reality. It is the idea that our individuality is somehow a pollution of Its purity, and if we wish to return home we must relinquish who we are.

This is so very far from the truth. As far as a Universe is wide. We are intentional and right beings of light, living and experiencing and learning. We are doing exactly what we are meant to do.

The problem is that we are too good at our jobs. We are too good at living in this dimension, in this reality. Too good at making our nest, our reality bubble, our pocket universe. We are so good at it that we can come up with a billion different versions of it, each encased in a separate and individual mind, and all co-exist in truth and reality. The task now is to find our next step in the Journey.

Many say they are ready for it, and eagerly waiting for “ascension powers”. It is the letting go of that which we have made around ourselves, all of the objects and experiences and physical locations that each of us sees as “me”, that becomes more difficult with time. This is why children find it easier to be exceptional than a middle aged person. A child has not lived a lifetime of memories, nor collected a household full of objects to hold them. A life on the upward cycle of such beginnings has not learned to be static, or learned that it has limits. The landscape of our imagination will always be bounded by perceived limits.

Memory can become a prison. Precious things from our past that we hold onto for a variety of reasons are not in themselves bad, but they can become part of the trap. We don’t truly need those things anymore than we truly need those memories, because nothing is lost and nothing is forgotten. All that has ever been is Remembered in the energy that makes up all that there is.

That is not to say that all are called to adopt a loner, vagabond lifestyle. An artificial disconnection would not exempt one from the struggle to let go, and even in an empty existence something of grace will serve to hook one at the crucial moment of choice. Each must find their authentic path.

What is memory? We believe, thanks to the disinformation of our scientific-medical-industrial complex, that memory is something that only exists in our physical brains. It is widely believed that we must play all sorts of games to remember all sorts of information from the minor to the necessary to the sublime.

Consider that Memory is a function of Mind, and the physical brain a type of transportation hub carrying Mind from one strata to the next, to our bodies, and back out again. Some hubs are more efficient than others. Some hubs are better with words and others are better with pictures. There are hubs with 50 stations running simultaneously and others that hum along happily with just a few. And not one hub is “better” than the other. Simply different.

The accumulation of memory in the academic, old paradigm style becomes a giant construct that we have to carry. It reminds me of the scene in the movie, Labyrinth, where the heroine is “piled on” by a seemingly well-meaning being carrying their house on their backs until she begins to resemble them. Just in time, her awareness kicks in and she stops the process before it is too late.

In much the same way, we are given the opportunity to evaluate and let go of things that we do not need at many junctures over our lifetime. Everyone is given glimpses into the Source Record where everything that we will ever need to know is retained. I feel that is one of the rules of this Journey, but this is my intuition rather than direct knowledge.

Perhaps you have had moments contemplating what ascension might mean for you. What will existence be like should such a thing occur? Everyone has moments of doubt and misgivings, and that is part of the process, too. Through contemplation we receive the answers we need at each stage of the journey. It really is okay to trust the process.

What do any of these things mean for each of us? It truly is an unknown landscape and the clincher is that we don’t get to have a preview. We can only take the leap when we Believe we are ready to do so.

It gets easier each time we try.


Can Free Will Be Bypassed?

Many who are on the Path understand the basic law of this paradigmatic reality, i.e., the Law of Free Will. Within this law is a wide leeway and latitude for its employment, a latitude which, some might argue, has suffered extraordinary manipulation and subversion by certain oppositional forces who wish humanity ill.

The larger picture is that we, and our planet, have been used for many thousands of years as a farm for negative emotion. This energy is used as a food source by beings who have converted their spiritual matrix to a parasitic nature. These beings, though mighty, have made themselves into much lesser beings through this Choice. And while these beings are on their way out, we have adapted to a co-existence with them.

What it means for us is that we are caught in an elaborate web of diversion, subversion, trickery, and maladaptation of our free will complex in order to “willingly” provide ourselves as a food source for these beings. However, it would seem that they have broken the Prime Directive of free will and used our basic biological and sociological constructs against us, knowingly and maliciously created elaborate constructs to bypass our free will completely, employing loopholes to claim we made a free will choice to be enslaved.

We’re a communal species who are hard-wired for cooperation. This means that we possess a kind of substrate or functional operational ground that requires a complexity of interpersonal relationships in order to function as we are optimally intended. In order for a three-dimensional, physical being who may be only mildly psychic (intuition) to maintain complex interpersonal relationships with larger numbers of other 3D beings, we must have an immense capacity for trust. This capacity goes far beyond what beings in 4D and above experience because of our experience of the Veil.

Trust is not a bad thing – it is an immensely good thing! So please do not hear these statements as a condemnation of trust, or admonition to become more cynical. The opposite is what we need. Refusing to engage in anger or in fear are also extremely important.

These manipulators are using an imposed operating system that functions on the etheric plane and in some ways the astral as well, sometimes a combination of both. It is important to remember that this does not make us victims, but makes us open to certain vulnerabilities. Those who created these oppressive systems are playing a very long game to create slaves who could be exploited over several waves or aeons.

If it were simply a work exchange program where humanity was given the gift of potentiated ascension in exchange for a few generations worth of work, as this enslavement is sometimes billed, this would be within a bound of function which might be acceptable were there no other methods for achieving it. But this is not the case – we were being set up to serve as an entirely different form of slavery, one where our emotional energy would be manipulated into darkly negative conduits and farmed as food for negative, advanced beings.

This will sound outrageous to some, but less so perhaps than it might have 20 years ago. That is because our people have been undergoing preparation for a very public and very global disclosure of our true origins and the many non-terrestrial races that interact with us here. Hundreds of TV shows and movies have been popularized and spread to everyone within reach of the technology to watch them. The idea of the “alien among us” has been made commonplace for a reason. It is the rare human who is not prepared for such an event as global disclosure.

It has been argued that humanity has given tacit agreement to its exploitation by not consciously refusing same. I do not believe we can understand this term only in a 3D frame of thinking. While it is true that during the time of our pre-birth we as pure energetic beings can see what is going on, once we incarnate fully, that ability is more than a little dimmed because of the Veil between our physical and etheric bodies. Further, the indoctrination of children begins as soon as they are born, effectively preventing them from retaining their pre-birth awareness and apprehension of the game, establishing another kind of veil.

This game is made deliberately complex, far beyond the comprehension of 99.99% of the surface population. This complexity is multi-faceted, hiding its many moving components across multiple dimensions. Even to the fully matured mind of an experienced meditator, it can be difficult to grasp.

As noted above, humans are hard-wired to trust. In practical terms this means that we will trust our parents, peers, and community implicitly, because our brains are structured to ensure this. It has been the oft-asserted lie that we are by nature competitive rather than cooperative because such a lie serves the ends of those power elites who run the world systems on behalf of the beings who use us as a food source. By indoctrinating us with the competition meme, they ensure that we trust the rulers more than we trust each other.

This is the pivotal point where our free will is in effect over-ridden by the ones who claim to be utilizing a loophole in the law and that we are “choosing” our own oppression. A choice between oppression/slavery and death is not a choice. No one can consent to their own torture.

The ability to discern and choose has been hampered at a very young age for all of us, but the consequences vary for women and men. Since that programming has built into it both cloaking mechanisms and diversionary fields, it has been very difficult for the average person to breakthrough the barrier to understanding.

There have been profound changes in our planet’s energy fields over the last several years, and this difficulty is easing tremendously. I will write more about this in an upcoming blog, but the link above will give you some background.

It is truly through the diligent and committed work of clearing our field and of meditation that we learn how to hear the voice of our Higher Self, without censure or filter. Learning to spot and disable the filters and programs inserted into our individual and collective matrix is part of the important effort to free ourselves, individually and collectively, from these “control” systems.

These are the hard truths – each of us must choose to exit the systems on our own. We must individually choose to no longer be exploited, or to do the exploiting. We must refuse to participate in the systems that profit on exploitation. We must refuse to accept the fear that pressures us into compliance. The stakes are very high, and the battle the most worthy one of all.